Currently Stewing!

Doesn’t time fly? It was a Thursday that the Queen died, and they said there would be 10 days of mourning, the radio went shit, only playing dull music, comedy was pretty much cancelled, and it seems like it was going to go on forever, what with moving the coffin from here to there, then parading along someplace or other, the queuing for the fanatics, you know the view the coffin thing, then before you knew it, it was day 11, funeral day, next thing you know, its all over, and back to normal – it sure reminds you how time flies don’t it?

The cat died on the Monday, (last week) she had been ill for a few months, it all started with a leg injury I think, which led to some sort of infection which was difficult to treat, because she won’t tolerate help very well, so that was an open sore for a few weeks, finally got some antiseptic onto it, and the sore healed, but she had a nasty limp, and kept having fits, which was very worrying, the fits got worse and worse, and no one seemed to know what was causing them, it was so bad on that last day we had to have someone out to put her out her misery, poor thing, always totally awful, she was a strong cat, and I’m sure she had another 5 years in her at least, but not in that state, twitching and groaning on the floor, it was awful, totally awful.

Back to the queen thing, what can you say? Good funeral, I watched it on the Monday, we all had the day off, so I put the TV on at 10 am, and watched the whole thing right up till about 5pm, pretty good to see all that respect is due stuff, you don’t see it much these days do you?

I haven’t had much time for art, I decided to do some 3D stuff for a bit, but it takes forever to get anywhere, and nothing really came of it I’d want to post, I had another idea for a new one, but I know it would take weeks, more than likely, maybe I’ll go ahead with it, not sure, the last week or so I been trying to do some music, it come out Ok I guess, thing is, I made a video of a bike ride, then I wanted some music for it, so I got to work, and its taken me all week really, other than going to work and doing other stuff, and I’m still not sure what I think of it, I’m not really an artist or a musician or whatever, but I have a go, then I’m disappointed more often than not that it doesn’t come out that good, but I shouldn’t really be down on myself, cos its ok, could be worse, just that I have a bit of an attitude about everything, it causes problems.

So anyhow, maybe I’ll just finish it and upload it with this script what I just scrawled – the bike hadn’t been performing well this year, so I had to do some work on it, and that wasn’t really a great success either, its probably better than it was, but only marginally, it kept overheating, I don’t know why that is, also breaking down a lot for no reason, its done a lot of miles and might be just worn out!

Anyhow, update, my song was only 4.20 long, so I fetched some noises I’d been messing about with on the iPad over the last few months or so and added them to the mix, making a video of 15 mins or so – its pretty dreadful, but I enjoy this sort of thing, so now all of you have to listen to it! 😀 😀

Check these Guy’s Track Record!

I was just thinking of this song after all these years, I never knew what its about, so I googled it, these are the lyrics

Rockin’ records
Rockin’ records
Rock the record
Rockin’ records
The guy’s rock records

Big priest
Big priest
Ah-big priest

Rockin records
Rock the record
Rob’s rock record

Drink the long 
Drink the long draught 
Drink the long draught for big priest

Drink the long draught down
Drink the long 
Drink the long draught
Big priest

He is not (appreciated)

Drink the long 
Drink the long draught 
Drink the long draught for big priest

Rock the records
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record

He is not appreciated

Check the record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record
Big priest

Check the record 
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record
Check the record
Check the guy’s rock record  (2)

He is not appreciated

Drink the long draught down
Drink the long 
Drink the long for big priest

Check the record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record

He is not appreciated

Rock the records
Rock the records
Rockin’ records
Big priest

Drink the long 
Drink the long draught 
Drink the long draught for the big priest

Check the record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record
Check the record
Check the guy’s track record

He is not appreciated

Rock the records
Rock the records
Rockin’ records
Big prinz

Rockin records
Rockin records
Rockin records
Rockin records

Rockin records
Rockin rec – rock’s records

And here’s the reasoning behind it explained!  “There used to be a rock-album discographical book called Rock Record and New Rock Record, edited by Terry Hounsome…it seems like it was a well-known reference work, and someone working in the music industry might well have had this on their office shelf and might well have said ‘check the guy’s rock record.’ Well, they might! http://annotatedfall.doomby.com/pages/the-annotated-lyrics/new-big-prinz.html

Well I find that all quite cheerful and amusing!

Here’s some songs I found by this group called “Kite” I think its rather good!

I may want to get some of these! 🙂

A Pooem – by Ogden Fahey

I Wrote a Note – by Ogden Fahey

Ha ha, I had this dream that I wrote this poem titled “I Wrote a Note” – well I can’t remember how it went, but I do remember it was delivered in the style of Sean Bean, Sheffield accent and all – (I don’t have a Sheffield accent, but I think maybe he was reading it out) so, all I do remember, was the final lines, (I wrote note – delivered slowly, 3 times), the audience (sort of poetry club beatniks) were stunned to silence, then moved to tears! Seriously, this poem was amazing, it touched every single person in the room, someone videoed it and it went viral, even got featured on the national evening news, I was like, oh god, what have I done now? I felt that I had definitely over-shared, you see I actually penned this thing about 10 years ago, when I was going through a phase of open honesty, I hadn’t really meant it, I was just exploring a side of myself which didn’t really exist, but now this dreadful thing was defining me – everyone thought of me as the guy who wrote “I Wrote a Note” and wanted to shake my hand, but I knew in a few weeks they’d likely want to kick my ass, cos the thing was just too honest, too powerful, what was I gonna do? How would I ever live this down? Then I woke up! Thankfully!! 

Naw then, check this out – play the first bit of both songs, they’re almost exactly the same!! Blimey! I just heard one on the radio, and thought coincidence??

U2 – Angel Of Harlem

Manfred Mann – Pretty Flamingo

The Fool

You never know what you’re going to spend up thinking about when you get up out of bed on a lazy day and turn on your computer and start browsing.

I still don’t know why I looked up the song “The Fool on the Hill” really, I think I just like it and wondered what Beatles album it came from, turns out its on the Magical Mystery Tour 

– so anyhow, while looking that up it mentioned McCartney said The Fool was inspired by Dutch design collective “The Fool” 

So I looked them up and it said they were discovered on the island of Ibiza in the hippie community in 1966, they came to London and worked with fashion and pop stars such as The Hollies and Eric Clapton, then went on to do the mural on the Apple Boutique in Baker Street.

https://www.beatlesbible.com/1967/12/07/the-apple-boutique-opens/

Very interesting, I saw a documentary film about that place, it closed after a short run and the mural had to be painted over due to complaints. Shame really, because it is rather good – a picture like that, well it says it all doesn’t it? I dont think there was any art like that before LSD – isn’t that peculiar?

George Harrison said life had become very boring, and run by boring people, and in the 60’s they started to change all that, but in the end, the boring people won the argument over the shop, and the Beatles lost interest in it.

So anyhow, there were no pictures of the shop mural on the page, so I went off to look for some and found this clip from a film called “Hot Millions” Its a crime caper that has rare footage of inside the shop.

Under that clip was comments about the era and all that, some guy bemoaning the current state of affairs in Britain, and how it’s all been raped by foreigners or whatever – there’s always some nutter isn’t there?! 😀 😀

Abrasive Wheels!

I’m just obsessing about this song tonight, no real reason, its just some left over energy I have from the 80’s – seriously love this song back then, and still do now I think – its got this great vibe going about the city at night, and loneliness – its quite dark I suppose, but still looking forward. What I love most about it, these guys are from Leeds, which is up north, (where I live nowadays) the punk music further south where I was living at that time was more of a pose, a bit of a fashion thing, what these guys had was more like punk soul, which is rare really, that’s how it sounded to me anyhow. There’s no real irony or negativity – its more like rock from the hip, but not shit rock, its motivational, while still being rooted in punk rock energy and good nights out,  its also got a darker realist side, which reflects the times perhaps.

You got great lyrics like:

Questions solutions daubed on the walls

From the heart of the city desperation calls

There’s too much time to think on these street

The dawn sun rises but my heart still sinks

Thats amazingly great isn’t it? Thats fucking poetry man! I saw them a couple of times, really full on and an absolute blast!

I’m gonna be honest, I had a drink, and watched some TV, it was ok, but I prefer to be listening to punk rock! Here’s a track from ye olden days, really gives you a bit of the old hoopla! 

This was their standard song – Burn Em Down, its about school of course! LOL

Wind!

What a nightmare week I had – the motorbike had problems, and I very nearly killed it off permanently when something broke and could only be bodge fitted to keep it going. Thing is, you go down this path with motorcycles where ones happiness revolves around how its running – its like a physical heartbeat that needs to be stabilised, or else its going to explode, or conk out or whatever. It reminds me of the book Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Mainentance, (Robert M. Prising) wherein he has fun times mixed with hard lessons, in real life, mine I mean, it can be so brutal, when your maintenance goes horribly wrong, when a bike is so old it no longer is viable its so sad – well nothing lasts forever of course.

I did a lot of work on it this year, its so that the enjoyment value becomes questionable if there’s really more strife than anything else – then its time to get another one, but I don’t want to, cos I like this one, you can see how personal this can all become? 

Years ago I had this bike that was causing me terrible problems, I was so unlucky, cos it just kept going wrong in every way imaginable, yet I loved that bike so much I went on with it, then I bought a second bike, and had two, while I fixed the other up, but eventually that one went wrong too, so I had two bikes, tons of debts and no way to fix either really, other than tinkering about before eventually selling both of them as a bad job. I was without transport for a few years and actually felt better for it, but my life was directionless, and in the end I got another motorbike some years later.

This one I bought 17 years ago, and I still have it, and it runs pretty good, so I can’t grumble, but because its so old and done so many miles, things inevitably are going wrong, each year a new set of problems, I’m not the worlds greatest mechanic, not by a long chalk, but when I ask the garage to fix things they don’t want to know, so I’m forced to tackle things myself – what a conundrum, motorbikes aren’t really treated fairly by the bike shops, they just want to sell them and look after them for a couple of years, but when you come in with something 17 years old, they’re like “look at that rust bucket!” 

Anyhow, I had enough of all this crap, you got wheels they’re fine, suspension, bit worn but ok, frame is fine, just the engine, its worn out, it used to be tight and responsive, not so much now, it still goes ok, but not exactly great, its just like the human body really, its life is finite, it will probably outlast me, (if anyone can afford to put petrol in it) but it wont live forever – wether its cared for or not – its just a lump of metal, its silly to be consumed by it, but that’s how it is. When its good, you can forget all your woes, and just ride! Ride like the wind! 

It’s time to talk about . . .

The Apocalypse!

Yes, that old chestnut! Well you see, what with the current situation and everything, I think we do need to acknowledge that we are indeed heading rapidly into the fiery lake of fire pit thingy. How can a lake be of fire you may ask? Well anything can be arranged it seems, considering, I was just thinking about the song “Strong – by Robbie Williams” Life’s to short to be afraid – so take a pill to numb the pain – you don’t have to take the blame” Well it says it all about where we’re headed, the human race I mean, RE: total destruction and hell! Then I was thinking of that song by The Killers – He doesn’t look a thing like Jesus – but he talks like a gentleman” Well, that’s where we’re all going wrong isn’t it? No Jesus, all looking for something a bit more slick eh? 

Anyway, I digress, what I was really thinking about was how music stars get followed by all these adoring fans, but they don’t know what they’re following, or where they’re being led too – its the nature of capitalism, and hyperbole, and bullshit! Rationalisation and bullshit! Haha, that’s funny, some comedian said that on this bit I was listening to – I forget where I heard it now, I think Rationalisation and bullshit should be acknowledged as representative of anything and everything.

So, I was just reading some adoring fans comments on some musicians page, and this was someone who achieved fame 30 odd years ago, and still these people are typing into the internet how great they think thought or thunk about this person and their music – yada, yada, its the same with everything related to fame I think. 

Lets add a little gravitas, if we’re all gonna end up dead, it hardly matters who we were, or who any of us were, or weren’t, lets just have it! 😀 

So perhaps what triggered some of my thoughts, I was listening to some gentle music on my fav channel, and it was by this guy called Oscar Avila, so I looked him up, he’s a musician, and he said 

We don’t make music because we are humans, we are human because we are musicians. I think music should be the most important thing in our world.

Thats ok, is it not? If we all just made music, or played it, or listened to it, properly, without all the bullshit and rationalisation above, perhaps we’d survive? Or maybe skip the apocalypse altogether! 

Yes, music is ok, really really ok, Art is good, but music is best, that’s what I think, music is more abstract than art, unless it has lyrics, then you can channel your BS, which is what starts the dung rolling – I don’t know, I was just thinking and falling asleep in the bath!

I think this was the one I was listening too

Edit: Here’s a good one! 😀 😀

Internet Radio!

I found this radio station called 180 WebRadio

https://uk.radio.net/s/180webradio

I can’t embed it, so if you’re interested, you’ll have to click the link & it should pop up in another window.

Thing is, I been looking for another radio station to enjoy for quite a long while, I used to subscribe to a good one, but it got deleted due to copyright reasons – so much radio gets on my nerves, I do enjoy something different though, and this one seems to be quite good, you never know what they’re going to play next, but whatever it is, its always good.

So, Thursday morning, I didn’t have to go to work, so I thought I’d just pay attention to my thoughts since my whole life was about to change forever – (ie. Waking up) 

I was thinking about where I went wrong, or might have gone wrong, or where I went right, if I ever did? Mostly in my life, Ive been an idiot, we’re all idiots in a way, but some of us are experts!

Anyhow, I forgot what I was thinking about inside the next few moments and all that remained were some 80s songs, 

Indestructible by Spandau Ballet

I don’t think I’m actually going to listen to it, cos I heard it a zillion times already, I know the words, even though I don’t like it in the slightest! LOL Well crafted pop though I expect!

Discharge Aint no feeble bastard

Well that’s more like it! I don’t know this one really TBH, I heard the Spandau songs more than anything, cos they’d be on the radio at work, if you wanted to listen to Discharge you had to be half crazy and have time on your hands – I guess I filled both those criteria!

Spandau Ballet Communication

Its them again! I don’t know why they feature in my dreams, formative years and all that I suppose, Its ok tho!

This next section, I wrote a little story while waiting around at work, I’d been reading a lot of erotic fiction, so I thought I’d have a bash at it myself! Writing I mean!! LOL Beware, this next bit is filth!

So I was off to the local pub and on the way there was a large van with the words “cock au vin” emblazoned in bright letters with a short queue of about 5 or 6 people waiting on the pavement there, so I noticed a friendly neighbour among them and I asked what’s this then? Cock au vin he says, and I said well, yes I can see that, is it a delivery service or what?  Well why don’t you find out for yourself he asked, So anyhow, the door drew open and someone jumped out and quickly disappearing into the shadows. It was a warm evening, the streetlights illuminated the scene while the customers chatted among themselves. Suddenly all attention went to the van door as it slid open once more, a man’s head popped out calling “c’mon then, let’s have the next” I noticed he had a Geordie accent, how curious.

My friend pushed me forward and the man looked directly at me and said c’mon then, let’s get cracking, before disappearing back inside, I looked at my friend and said what’s going on? As I did so, someone else in the queue said “go on, hurry up”.  So that was that, I stepped inside the van, as the door slammed behind me the sight which greeted me was so shocking, the van was kitted out like what I would call “a passion wagon” and the man who now beckoned towards me was completely naked, with the most enormous & outrageous erection. 

Yes, it’s that kind of story.

He motioned for me to be seated, I was very relieved to accept. So what’s it to be then? The man asked, I studied his nakedness, and his unashamed arousal, and replied what is this? Viagra? Sure, If that’s your thing – Sure, he repeated,  crouching down while rummaging through some fur lined drawers beneath a sideboard lined with colourful sex toys, no I mean your erection, what’s that for? Well it’s £10 for 10 minutes, and £15 for half an hour. Prostitution? I remarked, he snapped back well I’m not doing it for free, what do you take me for? I stammered I think I’ve made a mistake, I thought it said cock au vin, not cock in a van – well you should have read it better then he retorted, everyone else seems to know what they like, he stepped closer to where I sat and said, here, have a feel, his manhood was waving in front of my face, under my nose almost, I felt I could sense him he was so close, my hand took on a mind of its and gripped his shaft, the man immediately began to spasm, gasping loudly as if I had poured boiling water over him, I moved my other hand, cupping his balls, noticing they were as tight as nuts in a squirrel’s cheeks, his legs crumpled at the knees as he swooned over me, catching himself from falling by gripping my shoulder, ahhh, ahhh, he went, you’re driving me crazy, etc,etc, blah blah blah, 

Well you get the idea, I was expecting chicken! 

Here’s some more songs I was just thinking of

Rose Royce – Love don’t live here anymore

I just thought of that on the way home, probably they were playing it on the radio earlier – just a good song!

Godley and Creme – Cry

What a great video and song! I always liked that one, I looked it up recently, cos I remembered one of the faces left a vivid impression on me, it must be from so many years ago, one of the first of the MTV style pop videos.

Belfegore – All that I wanted

Thats from the same era, its another great bit of innovative video.

Lights A.M

I just discovered this guy tonight on Bandcamp, he’s got an album out, weirdly good!

Venus in Furs

I been reading the book Venus in Furs, until recently, when I had to put it down, it is the most depraved piece of literature I have ever had the misfortune to pick up – no seriously, its really rather good! 

So anyhow, its by Leopold von Sacher-Masoch – apparently, well I never heard of him either – but I had heard of the song by the Velvet underground, so I thought I’d have a read, very good, you know the main character, Other than (Wanda Von Dunajew) (she’s the one with the whips & furs) The other main character is called Severin, and the guy out of Siouxsie and the Banshees must have been named after him, how interesting, I always thought his name was smart – but I didn’t realise where he got it from!

So, I read this book, and its all about this guy (Severin) who in order to avoid the usual pitfalls of love, decides to take a less dominant role in this relationship, so he begs Wanda to treat him like a slave, which she agrees to do. (Its way ahead of its time you know this was written in 1870) – so he gets his wish and she treats him worse and worse as the story goes on, culminating in the best scene of the book IMO in which Severin is brutally whipped by Wanda in the nude, apart from her fur coat! Wowwee, what a spectacle! 

So anyhow, I thought what a great scene for a picture, so I went with that, its not been as easy as you’d imagine, I had a go at the subject. 3 times before I came up with something I liked. First effort was the better one, even though it was only a 30 second sketch, I noticed that the viewing angle was looking up at her – that’s subconscious in action! I saw her that way from the book – not at the beginning, because she’s far more coy at the start, its only after becoming more Dom, as her character evolves, the reader comes to realise who she really is – or has become – or whatever.

So in the end, it was that drawing I based the rest of my work on, simplistic though it is, its worked out ok IMO 🙂 

Enter the Void

Greetings my friends, how are we bearing up with the current crisis’s? Everything has gone pear shaped what with the strikes, the climate, the covid, the government in general, and the war as well as the petrol & the nuclear power, and that’s just the start of it! 

So anyhow, I finally got to see the film Enter the Void at the weekend, I bought it 2nd hand off eBay a couple of months ago, having seen a little bit of it on tv, I had it in the back of my mind to check it out at some point. It’s by that Gaspar Noé, he did the film Irreversible – which was so violent and outrageous, even I didn’t see it for about a decade, I just thought no, I’ll stick with Star Wars & Sound of Music etc for now. Anyhow, I saw that a while ago, and while the sex & violence were extreme, by todays standards it wasn’t so shocking as it was when it came out.

Anyway, Enter the Void isn’t full of violence or shocks particularly, oh yeah, he (Gaspar Noé) also did the film Climax, which I saw on tv a while ago, it’s about dance – and LSD, yes, it’s a bit odd, but very interesting, a bit like a treat for the psychologists, because you know how interpretive dance is like one of the deepest & most direct forms of human expression? Well it’s interesting anyhow, but what if someone spiked their drink with LSD? Well, it has to be explored doesn’t it? Surely?? 

Anyway, I enjoyed both those movies, so I thought it’s about time I got hold of Enter the Void and watched it, so I got this copy, and pressed play – it was in German, so I was reading subtitles, and I thought, why is this in German? So I tried pressing various buttons to sort it out, to no avail, so in the end I emailed the seller and said I wanted the English version, not the German one. So the guy comes back and tells me how to sort that out, and how to read the German menu & change it to English, and he was right! It worked! 

So, a few more weeks went by and I thought ok, I’m ready to give it another go – so I pressed play, and it’s in German again, so I press the thing & it doesn’t give me any options, so I’m thinking ok, maybe it’s partly in German, & the English bits will be later? So I settle down to watch in German, and I’m about 25 mins into it, and I’m thinking, this movie should definitely be in English, I mean is it partly German or not? I don’t mind reading subtitles, but it does take your eye off the details, so I press pause & Google the movie & it says it’s an English language film! So I fire up the computer & find the email from the eBay guy a few months back, follow the instructions and boom! Back to English! It was the buttons on the remote letting me down, batteries flat.

So I finally get into it, and it does go on a bit, I started watching about midnight, and by about 3am, I was thinking when is this going to end? I wanted to go to the loo, I’d not been for ages, and what with all the pauses to get the right language and everything, so I looked it up & it’s like 2.25 hrs or whatever, but I must have got the directors extended cut or something cos I was already well past that point – so I noted where I’d got to for reference, and scrolled forward, and there was still loads to go, so I was like screw this, I’m off to bed. I watched the rest of it the following night, it was good, I enjoyed it!

The Spoilers:

This film is about a guy who dies, after a shooting, he’s a drug dealer, so you think he’s gonna die from an overdose, so it was clever to avoid that – we all know drugs are dangerous, right kids? So, as it happens, he’s been reading The Tibetan Book of the Dead, which is actually a very interesting book, oh yes, I read it myself many years ago, totally bonkers most of it, but like all these ancient religions, it’s no doubt garnered from experiences people had in their lives & legends and so on, so this theory goes that if you die, you go into The Void, the afterlife, or lack of, it’s about what you may or may not experience, or expect to find after death, it’s the Void of course, nothingness, no existence, but who knows, does memory survive? Do feelings? And for how long? Seconds? Hours? Days? Does a second become an eternity? Well I dunno do I? it’s all rather interesting, then you got the whole reincarnation thing, so there’s a lot of people having sex in this film, and we’re told the only people who understand or are close to the Void, are those making love, it’s because if they conceive, that’s how people come into the world, (from the Void), and that’s it really, it’s like revolving door, people are forever dying and people are forever being born, if you die, you Enter the Void, and if you’re born, you came out of it, who’s to say it’s not simply reincarnation? It’s like a door, you go through it, and you’re in a different place, over here in our culture, if you die, you go into the ground, what’s so great about that? You’re expected to just lay there, all year round, through wind and snow, half frozen, just waiting for ressurection – or whatever – we got ghosts in this country been waiting for hundreds and hundreds of years, just wondering what happens next,  but over there, if you haven’t made it to the next dimension in like, a few days or a week, you’re reincarnated, and really, that’s that! Pretty sci-fi & far out imo!

Also in the film, it’s quite sad about the tragedy of young people & dangerous drugs, I mean if you’re older, and someone says “hey, have you tried DMT? It’s really great, you might think you’re dead already!” Well if you’re older, you probably just say, well it’s interesting, but I’m actually a bit busy tonight, so you go ahead & I’ll leave it, let me know how it works out ok? But young people, well they’re curious, and they want to know about things, they actually go out of their way looking for crazy things to explore, well some of them anyhow, when they had their fill, they go, well, that’s enough now, I’m gonna take something else up now, cos I’m not bonkers – but not all of them do, some push it too far, and that’s the kind of thing you get in the film, it’s very well done, I recommend it, the film I mean, not the drug taking and tripping the light fantastic!