A few weeks ago I got this new exhaust for my motorbike, (they do wear out just like car ones do) so I got this exhaust, good price on eBay, and when I went to fit it, the nut broke on the bike, its a real disaster, so I took it to this local guy and asked if he could fix it like he did last time, and he said he’d have a go, but it wasn’t likely to work out like last time, due to the position of the nut, I might have to take the head off – which is very bad news, it would cost a lot to get it done, and if I do it myself, it would save a lot of money, but I might break more bits and the ruin the whole bike.
Anyhow, he fixed it, but not very well, I could tell this fix wasn’t very good, the weld was weak and the nut broke off again a week or 2 later, so now I had to think about what to do? This was Sunday just gone, so I spent that day trying to weld it myself, but after hrs and hrs of struggling, I had to concede defeat, I was making more of a mess of it that the other guy – much more, I’m not a good welder.
Most disappointing and distressing, I love that bike! It took me to the north of Scotland last summer, I’m looking forward to going there again this year, last Sunday, I had set off for the coast, with my camera looking forward to a lovely day but instead spent it laying under the bike trying in vain to fix that broken part!
The mechanic had suggested taking the head off, and then taking it to a specialist who can extract that broken part with a “spark erosion” tool, so I spent this week going to work on the bus, then each evening tackling the long process of dismantling motorbike parts until its ready to remove the head as suggested, its very worrying, because frankly, I’d rather bake a cake than attempt this kind of thing.
During the week I went through quite a few processes regarding the current situation. At first I was just so fed up, I know its only a motorbike, and theres more to life than motorbikes, so I was thinking I could do without it, just run off and forget about it, but I do need transport, and it would be madness to do that – maybe I should pay someone to do the work? Or maybe I can actually do this myself? I wasn’t sure, I needed help in the form of a confidence boost – so I went to a forum for bikes and chatted to someone who was very helpful, he actually likes working on bikes, so he imparted a few tips and said “have fun!” Thats the kind of positivity I needed, even then, I still consulted another mechanic locally, rang another for a chat, and considered every other option imaginable.
I still haven’t got very far with the work in hand, but I feel like today (Wednesday) I’m finally able to cope with the situation – I took more parts off the bike in the last few days than I took off any bike for years, and I think I can just about remember where most of it goes back, though its actually impossible, as its like a spaghetti junction, I should be able to figure out the parts I can’t remember, only a couple more days and I’ll have the head off if all goes well.
I had no time to do any art, I may be able to do some once the head is off, as it will be off with the spark erosion guy for a week or more, meanwhile I shall have to walk everywhere – it takes a bit of getting used to, I love the freedom of biking, its a great feeling, its just a bit sad when it seems that it has taken over your life, become too big a thing in it, not that I’m a fanatic or anything, but you realise how big and important it must be when your so gutted without it!
When I was 30, I sold my 2 bikes and decided to live without that hobby for a while, it had consumed me, taking to much of the little resources I had, I wanted to focus on something else, so I went off to college to do art for 4yrs, then eventually I got another bike, just to get to work really, but of course I’d go out weekends, but you don’t see much when your driving, not like you do when you walk. Its a different pace. Its ok, its not a bad thing to have a hobby, its fine in its place, no biggy – it just seemed a bit consumptive this week.
When I took art more seriously, I thought bikes would be 2nd place to art, and they are, art is better than motorbikes, for my soul and my mind and all that, but this week, the bike has to come first, or else this will never get done – I kind of wonder if I wasn’t a biker, perhaps I’d feel more pain in my art, I don’t tend to choose the path of suffering, someone once said “you have to suffer for your art” I do a bit, sometimes, like for instance, sometimes I think I’m just shit, and should just give up, admit that I’m in fact incredibly normal and boring, and just strive to be like the people I detest, because I’m no better than them. But that is actually quite hard to do, its much more attractive to award oneself superior innate talents and just go ahead making messes, and telling yourself its pure genius! 🙂
Oh yeah, where was I? Ego! Whats a hobby, and whats a job that needs doing, and what is art? Somethings have to be taken seriously, or else they don’t get done, all things to some extent I guess.
Anyhow, I got to try and fix this bike, it won’t fix itself – I keep checking in and reading, but I don’t have much time or energy to do much more for a bit XX