That feeling when . .

That feeling when . . 

You edited pictures, and could decide which you liked better?

This first one was at Brodsworth Hall last week, bit disappointed the focus isn’t much good, probably to many people coming up behind me.

This are straight out the camera

These are from today, I got my version, and the edited one – which do you prefer? You can probably guess the first is unedited. –

This one is ok – I’m happy with the edit!

My computer had been crashing madly all week, so I spent most of Saturday researching what new one to buy, then Saturday evening, the crashing mysteriously stopped & normal service has been resumed! Weird – its still a poorly computer, but I’m sort of prepared to not buy a new one after all 🙂

Weird Dream!

I had this dream the other night, I tend to forget them after a day or two, so I’m gonna jot this down now, before its gone forever.

So, I was near where my old school was when I was growing up, in the village, there’s an old dry stone wall there round the field where we used to have sports day and all that, and in the dream, there were some kids sort of in a row, but they weren’t wearing a uniform I recognised, they wore green blazers, with a smart emblem, pleated skirt for the girls etc. So I asked them what school they go to? Well they told me there was another school in the village, I never knew that, so I asked where it was? They said it was up behind the garage, so I was like what, the Texaco one? (It was the only one that I knew that had space behind it, and they said yeas, thats right. 

So anyhow, I thought I shall check that out, cos I never knew about it, and I thought I knew everything that goes on around here, (or there, since I don’t live there anymore – tho the places very often feature in my dreams) So anyhow, I go looking for this school, and I find this old building, with a sort of gothic porch, like an old church or something, and there’s a bench there, so I lay down and go to sleep. In the early morning I’m woken by this kid, he’s on the phone there saying “yeas, she’s been dead in her house all night, we’ll come and get her” Next thing I know, there’s a bunch of kids brushing past me struggling a bit with this coffin – and I’m thinking, what the hell kind of school is this?? 

Well, I woke up after that, someone in the dream (but not actually in that dream, in the real world part of the dream) (Maybe I’m having more than one dream at the same time? The mind boggles!!) was giggling when I mentioned the Texaco garage, they said “Did he say the Texaco garage?” I don’t know whats funny about that, but maybe its someone else’s secret? 😀 😀

I thought this was Tom Petty? Took me ages to ID this song! Confused!!

Requiem for a Standstill Dream While Running!

I played some  of the U2 album “The Joshua Tree” tonight, its a seminal album, their best I would say, anyhow, it takes me back to that time when it came out, (about 1987) so its quite a while ago, over 30 years! Well, I remember playing it on my headphones when I was walking up mountains, or sitting in my chair at home – its quite spiritual music, it makes you drift in and out of yourself,  perhaps is true to say spirituality is introverted? You get weird lyrics like:

You set my desires

I trip through your wires


I see seven towers

But I only see one way out


Sleep comes like a drug

In God’s country

What’s it all about? Well I don’t know, I didn’t write it did I? I didn’t want to get drawn into it and end up buying the album, but in the end, I did get a copy 2nd hand. U2 were huge at that time, so big, you’d see singer Bono on tv, hobnobbing with world leaders and influential persons of great import. At their live shows, at that time, they always closed the show with their song “40” and get the crowd to sing the refrain “How long to sing this song” – everyone would leave the venue in floods of tears going “oh man, I got to do something about my life!” It was all very moving, I don’t think any other band was doing that sort of thing on that scale before or after. 

Check this out – he’s not very adept on the piano, there’s only 2 notes – but it sounds better for it.

Anyway, its that sort of thing.

So I looked up some references about what other music was around at the time, you got your Guns & Roses, Prince, George Michael, INXS, Sinead O’Connor, Def Leopard, there was loads more, but times change, and I thought about the movie “Requiem For a Dream”

Oh lets have another song from that U2 album, a more fun one!

But getting back to the future, Requiem for a Dream came out in 2000, tho I probably didn’t see it till a few years later when it came up on telly – its not exactly a barrel of laughs this film, but it is a masterpiece of cinema – and perhaps it shows how the culture was changing? Maybe, maybe not, I don’t watch it often, but I do enjoy a bit of introspection, a bit of misery goes a long way you know!

The music for the film was done by Clint Mansell, formerly in Brit pop group “Pop Will Eat Itself” Yeah! For real! I never would have guessed, I just heard it somewhere, and its true!! 

Here’s some guy talking about the film – if you’re going to watch it, this direction might make it even better! (Or not, because I for one, forgot everything I learned from watching it already) Thing is, he says its good, and he’s an expert – I certainly enjoyed the film last time I saw it!

BTW – if you thought that wasn’t bad enough (LOL) This retro thinking was probably inspired by a great documentary series I’m currently watching – this episode was talking about the influence of valium in the 70s, its a great series – right up my street! 🙂

Being and Nothingness!

There was a milestone today in my life, I had this problem with my rear mudguard, (fender) on the motorbike, it just rattles about a bit, its the fixings and fittings are worn out, so I found out I could buy this part for only about £30, so I got it, and it arrived the next day, today, so I decided to fit it right away, since I had the whole week off, it seemed like a good idea, but then when I got it off, I couldn’t remove the indicators without wrecking them, so in the end, I decided to give up on it for now – its too cold to work outdoors, and I need the bike for work next week, so anyhow, I put it all back together, then the rear light wasn’t working, so I had to take it all apart again, and find the broken wire, fix that, then put it all back together all over again – so you see my problem? Its been difficult – now I have to drink loads of beer to drown my sorrows on this matter –  its hardly important, I’ll have another go at it when the weather warms up, or if I can source some cheap replacement indicators. The thing is, its a major life changing event for me, comparatively to anything else that happened in the last 12 months or so at least, I don’t really need this kind of bullshit in my life, its not what I dreamed of – ok?

The cats that used to come round here everyday for snacks disappeared this week – its extraordinary, perhaps I’m missing them? They been here every day for a couple of years, first the black and white one vanished about 4 months ago, no idea where too – but she wasn’t so regular in the last few months, so I expect she found a new address to visit, also, she was pretty fat anyhow, so I reckon she was doing ok – the 2 boys were both really skinny, and were here all the time, so perhaps the guy who owned them moved out? I have no idea – weird! 

I did a lot of music, its all crap, but I’m enjoying it, so I shall post some of that before long, on a motorbike video, I finished one last week, and uploaded it – it took ages – but it never appeared on youtube, I don’t know why, but my computer is a bit crippled – so it could be to do with that, not sure.

The cat is sprawled out in front of the fire, I trouble her from time to time and she’s like WTF man? Leave me alone! 

I have no real idea what the meaning is of this song, its not been troubling me really, I don’t care what its about, I wonder why he shouts out “Suffragette?” half way through?

Ah, this makes much more sense!

The Stranglers used to perform at weddings before they got famous for punk rock! Bit of pop trivia there! 😀

Gimmie dat rock n’ roll!!

I’m Not Mad – I’m Primitive!

When I try to make industrial or drone like music on my iPad or computer I keep finding myself thinking of the bass line in “I’m not mad” by Alien Sex Fiend, or the lead guitar sound in “Primitive” by Killing Joke! Its so strange, cos these 2 tunes keep surfacing in my mind, its been going on for months, even a few years – they’re both very good, but why these 2 songs? They’re embedded in my brain – not that I base my life on them or anything like that, its the tuneage – just really really good! I like other stuff of this sort too, but its these 2 songs. That keep disrupting my flow, I’ll think hmm, whats a good tune? And its one or other of these 2 – almost as if they were the only 2 of that sort – I like a lot of what Hawkwind did, but its not them that I go to for a good melody – its

“I’m Not Mad”

Or its


A bit of Darkness

Content Warning – Awful !

People often ask me “Ogden, why are you so evil” I usually just change the subject, or go on and on about it till they get tired – its like a scratched record, you don’t get to the end of a story like that.

Well that was going to be my opener for a longer post, but I forgot where it was going, so here’s some other thoughts – I used to share a house with this guy who had a plaque over his bedroom door which read “The Penis is Mightier than the Sword” he’d got a waterbed in there, and a beautiful girl friend – I liked living down there in Maidenhead, very nice place, and some fun times. Anyhoo, one time I was out for a ride on my bike, and got a bit lost somewhere near the M25, so I’m pottering along and wondering where I am, its misty, a little foggy, and I must have been riding through a huge war cemetery, cos the road was narrowed with no signs or markings, and on either side, there were just loads and loads fo crosses – woo, spooky or what?

This was the model bike I had back then – it used to chug along like an old steam engine!

Well additionally, as far as stuff relating to the war, it was holocaust Memorial Day last week, and I ended up watching something about it on TV, it was called “The Holocaust in Colour” old footage, really horrific stuff. I don’t often think about it these days, it was a long time ago, and so awful, but they do say we shouldn’t forget –  (how could you) There was this picture of these 2 boys which struck me how unhappy they look, and how could that have happened, or been allowed to happen? 

Just look at those faces!

Then I was thinking, what about today, and how we send all these asylum seekers back, and make them go and wait in camps, they can’t be very happy places can they? Why do humans behave like that? Its disgusting and despicable, there’s no excuse, we should do away with borders and passports and all that stinking shitty behaviour, its a repulsive human trait. I honestly think, if someone isn’t behaving in an acceptable way, sure, throw them in jail, or kill them or whatever, or use punishments and discipline within reason, but don’t round people up and treat them like crap just because they aren’t “one of us” Whatever the fuck thats meant to mean in the first fucking place! I mean really! Get real!! ❤